It's being really tough but like most of you said, it's the best thing to do.
I am strong, at least I am trying, but it is not as easy as you all think it is.
But it kills me completely to be his mistress and to be doing things secretively. I cannot ask him to walk out of his marriage because he has a daughter, and both our parents will be terribly upset. Asking him to do that is simply not fair, it has many lives attached.
I love him, he loves me, very very deeply and madly. PS: Every time I confront him with this deep feeling of guilt, he asks me to be happy and live this moment happily with him. We tried breaking up, only to find our love for each other multiply with time.
EDIT: To everyone who has been blunt with me, to everyone who has patiently written to make me understand, to everyone who abused me, to everyone following this question and to everyone waiting to know what I did with this relationship... It took me really long enough and while I posted this question here, I was already quite crippled in my heart and I was trying too hard to get out of it.
It took me this long and I broke up just a few days ago.
The reason I am doing this edit is because I am hoping that the people who've used abusive and hurtful language realize that everybody makes mistakes, but some just need more time because they put all of their heart into things that they feel are theirs. He has a baby that is months old and now I am in a relationship with him. And for a more comprehensive breakdown on leaving your married lover:.
It is tough to detach your heart from a bond of love. He loves me a lot, and the only two people he cares about is his daughter and me. It would also help to build up your boundaries, and work on your self-esteem. There's an infographic of cheating after the jump.
I'm afraid those statements are self-contradictory. When judging people, it's always better to look at what they do. The truth is, I can see how easy it is to fall into this trap. He came off as pleasant, sweet, thoughtful; but as soon as I found out, I ran. Never settle for less than all of his heart, his love. These things really do seem to occur cycles- caveat emptor.
He has a baby that is months old and now I am in a relationship with him.
He loves me a lot, and the only two people he cares about is his daughter and me.